Archive for December, 2008

Mind over matter

Monday, December 29th, 2008

How does one becomes Old and not Pessimist? Young and not childish? Worldly and not Old?

If we’ve lived life long enough, we know that life is never just one long happy ride. Most often it is riddled with disappointments, and failures. But it also has many happy moments that are considered too precious, to recall even. Being young is not really a physical thing. It is a mind thing; we stop doing things when we think we can no longer do it, and the longer we don’t do it, the less we will be able to do it. 

If we are living life, we become aware of how the world moves and communicates. We become worldly. If we do not understand life, we just become pessimist with no real goal in life except the end. 

 

Can one be inquisitive and not intrusive? Surely.

Strickness

Sunday, December 28th, 2008

Suae suae.. suppose to have a party at my studio today and then last night, for unknown reason, started puking big time of nothing.. yes, nothing. Just mucus and sticky white stuff. Damn.. Was looking forward to it. The party, that is, not the puking. Woke up with aching body and cold symptoms. 

Nonetheless, still have work to finish, and am back at the office preparing files for the library, and prints. Not to mention my upcoming exhibition soon in Feb.. stress and sickness (strickness) really don’t go well together.. massive throb over the top of my head, kinda like someone with a soft hammer hammering away.. throb throb throb.. sue sue…

Wish me get well soon.. booo hoooo….

My first piano practice in more than a decade.

Thursday, December 25th, 2008

It’s all quiet at the home front.. looking at my really lonely piano, and looking at the cupboard full of piano books.. and just thought that I should play something..I knew I could still play since I dream about playing complete pieces ALL the time.. but I never knew that my fingers would be so unused to it! 

Nonetheless, it’s exhilarating to be able to just play the pieces after just an easy practice. Though I must admit that it’s nothing close to the speeds I used to play them in.. still, exhilarating!

Things I miss about it were the memories of my childhood; practicing all the time, with no end at sight. I’m not complaining, I love it! I love practicing most of the times; the only times I don’t like it’s when I’m forced to repeat dusty boring pieces over and over again just so I could hit a teacher’s quota. 

Ahhh… the sounds are a little flat (not tuned it since a long time ago), but somehow, that makes it a lot more nostalgic; kinda like a memory that’s gone slightly old and dusty.. kinda like in the movies. I am so loving this experience! 

And, the smell… it’s all there in the piano, and one can only smell it when it’s opened. wah.. 

I’m going to try to get my piano tuned and play more once I find the time.. today was just really really great.

Voom, and Chien-chi

Wednesday, December 24th, 2008

Finally back at the National Museum to catch the Voom show and also to revisit to Chien-chi’s show (read my Oct 21st 2008 entry). 

I especially loved Robert Wilson’s Voom show. It really challenges what is a portrait. By keeping them still, they are almost like paintings or photography, but the ‘action’ that plays itself out is just wonderfully more layered; in the non-movement, there are just so much more life.

The Brad Pitt’s portrait (that EVERYONE talked about), is really not as much sexy as it was threatening (when he finally pulls up his gun), not so much Brad Pitt, but the character he plays. Johnny Depp’s also rather similar. I was tickled silly by Isabella Rossellini; whom I never thought would be up for such a role! There were many celebrities and some artists, and 1 royalty; I wonder if that was just a reflection of the popular culture, and if they were chosen because they would be able to handle such a portrayal of what Wilson wants.  

Wilson, in his own words, writes that he doesn’t interpret his own work, but rather to allow others to interpret it for themselves. It reminds me of the many students who tell me that they just want others to interpret their work, rather than interpret it themselves. Of course, the two is just different. Wilson, has created works that are in themselves, layered, and it tells of many different stories and interpretation within each image; by giving an interpretation would limit the image itself, and when an audience is allowed to come to their own understanding, it brings forth the depth of the stories that are unfolded within the audience’s mind. 

Chien-chi’s works, still moves me. This time round, I had my Chinese worker friends come with me (Yes, I paid for them; would never allow them to spend like this.) Their reaction was actually that of relief that they did not live the lives of these NY based construction workers. Some have similar stories from the village where they came from; it seems the different regions of China has different types of skills that are exported overseas. Many workers now prefer to stay within Asia. Looking at the Video of  the older workers who have spent more than 15-19 years away from home, only to go home to strange land and unfamiliar children makes them realize the reason why they are here, and that the family is more important.  

Many, many years ago, when I was still way tender, I’ve once thought of doing a piece on foreign workers here in Singapore, because I want to live life just like they do, but know that I cannot. It is very different from the time I was allowed to spent my holiday working in one of my grandfather’s rubber plantations in Malaysia; I liked waking up early to go into the dark forests, I liked to see wildlife unfold before my eyes (a cock fighting with a huge centipede more than a metre long), I liked the ‘toughness’ of it. Almost like working with nature. Construction workers, coffee boys and chefs would be so different. But nonetheless, I feel that something will come out of this eventually.

海角七號 - Cape No. 7

Tuesday, December 23rd, 2008

Having quickly read somewhere that this is Taiwan’s big big movie, I thought I had to give it a go when it comes to Singapore, since I fell sorta in love with the arts in Taiwan when i was recently there. I didn’t read about the storyline, nor do I even know who the actors were.. but I somehow thought it was a movie about a ship called 海角七號. ha. Boy, was I almost wrong. 

The story started on a ship sailing back to Japan. Carrying with it a male character that reads his love letters throughout the whole film; it is these letters that eventually tied the whole story together. I’ll not give the story away here, but really like the emo piano-based music playing in the background when he starts reading. 

The whole structure of the story telling was really very well done. Where confusions, different stories, same names, mixed up languages all come together into a happily-ever-after ending. Characters were fleshed out without over-sentimentalizing them, stories were unfolded concurrently, surprises and humor came in form of family ties and slapstick, action came in the form of music.

Only thing I didn’t like was the fact that love was portrayed as being too self-sacrificing; that something good will come out of suffering. But that’s probably because of my current state of mind. Nonetheless, my tears were there as witness to my own sentimentality. 

Go see it if you haven’t already.

Oh, but don’t bring in some cheesy yucky smelling food and eat, like the one who sat right next to me.. gawd, it stinks! Why DO they serve such strong smelling food when they KNOW that people will be sitting so close to one another?!?

Aunties back

Monday, December 22nd, 2008

I think that Macs really do scour the web for feedback on their services.. was just at Macs recently and guess what? An Aunty was serving me at the counter! Such great service. 

Nice to have you back, aunties & uncles. *hugs*

Merry christmas and glorious new year

Monday, December 22nd, 2008

I love this.. just tot it was funny and enjoyed spending more than an hour setting up all the time and names and quotes, and blah.. would have done more, but then it might not end up looking like facebook anymore! Hek hek . . some of you might get the glorious part, but most of you won’t. Let’s keep it our little secret. :P

crazy crazy

Monday, December 22nd, 2008

It’s been some crazy 2,3 weeks where i really didn’t feel like writing anything on my blog.. well, at least writing more often in my diary, but never felt like posting anything on this blog.. just feeling really, really crazily weird. 

Well, christmas and new year is coming dah!

Do Not Disturb - Late Checkout, please

Sunday, December 21st, 2008

Went to catch the afternoon show of the above play. It is really quite good.

Actors Serene Chen and Karen Lim are just fantabulous; they played off each other’s idiosyncrasies so well. Taking off with each other’s lines while at the same time keeping with the whole tempo of the play. The twist where they actually love each other so much, the hate just made sense. Only problem could just be that Karen seems to have a sore throat that day, which kinda marred the ’sing along’ feel of the play, which I feel was important in getting the audience to feel with the actors on stage. But aiya, these kinds of things are really difficult to avoid especially during these few months of massive coughing viruses spreading around the globe! 

Actors Tim Nga and Joanna Dong are also really fantabulous too! It’s so interesting to see this combo when one is so tall and one is so tinnie. But the energy from Joanna was very infectious and very, very natural; so natural I think she’s actually kinda like this in real life, maybe just tune down a little bit. Tim Nga had to play someone who’s very restrained - something quite different from his real self. The play of his name in a Ang Lee movie was just “real meets make-believe”! Did Tim want to act in a Ang Lee movie in real life? Within that restraint character, there is a very genuine openness in that performance; which is very nice to see in an actor. I always felt that actors who finally let themselves be the performance as opposed to DOING a performance tend to shine very naturally as stars. Case in point would be Gong Li and Zhang Ziyi. Where Li allows her character to just be, Zhang tries so hard (not a bad thing, but there is a difference)! Li would outshine Zhang even just by appearing. Anyway, I digress. 

Where Serene and Karen takes off with each other’s lines, Tim and Joanna takes off each other’s clothes. Both are really passionate in their own way. Leaves me wanting more. Somehow, Tim seems into Joanna. Hope to see more sparks in any possible future collaboration! 

Serene and Tim, if you are reading this.. Ya the bomb and see ya soon darlings.

party!

Saturday, December 20th, 2008

It’s been such a long, long time since I could just let loose, flirt, blab, drink almost non-stop, eat some really nice nice food.. and it’s happened 2 times and both before Christmas itself! Haha.. 

Missing me.